What can I do? What can you do?
I was wondering today (and in many other days) what I could do to help making the world a better place. Otherwise, what would I have lived for when I die?
I think I need to feel useful to feel like a real human being, like, say, to help someone or something somehow, to help me feel like making part of the real world. I don't know if I'm making myself clear... well, anyways, I am feeling so guilty today! Because now I spend a lot of time thinking on how I can help here and, don't take me wrong, I love volunteering for stuff here in the US, but what did I do for my country? Nothing. I try so hard here and I never did anything in my country.
You know, the same old story: I don't have time, and this and that.... but the truth is, I could've done something. And I didn't. I have friends who were as busy as me or even more, and they found time to dedicate themselves to something. I never did. That hurts my heart so much!
My country has so many problems....! There are tons of things that I could've done in order to help... I feel shame. It's so much easier here to do something! It seems that it is more organized... but this is even one more reason in order to help in my country! I know many people take a step, small, but they make a difference in the communities they live. I constantly think my county - what are the major problems? How did we get there? (This is a hard one that I've been trying to find an answer for and, so far, nothing popped into my mind...). How could we fix it? How could we improve? What could we, as people, as citizens, do???????
Nothing. No answer. It's like talking to God. You never hear a clear answer....
I feel like I should do something, somehow. I feel like I should move my fat ass towards something other than the fridge!
But.... what??????????????????
I'm wondering if there is anything that I could do from here, from the US... maybe with a little help from my friends there... maybe we could get involved in something together... but what????
I think about Amazonia... I think about the endangered species, which I don't even know the names... I think about our indians (or native americans)... I always liked so much indian culture....and never tried to get involved in their issues.... =((
I think about the violence - so many needy communities in the city that I so much love! What have I done to help? Nothing.
I think about those AIDS patients that I interviewed for the college newspaper (which was an important one, with a certain degree of voice, considering it to be a college news) - what have I done, personally, in order to help them, other than writing about their situation??????
Oh, man.... so much shame....
=(
I think I need to feel useful to feel like a real human being, like, say, to help someone or something somehow, to help me feel like making part of the real world. I don't know if I'm making myself clear... well, anyways, I am feeling so guilty today! Because now I spend a lot of time thinking on how I can help here and, don't take me wrong, I love volunteering for stuff here in the US, but what did I do for my country? Nothing. I try so hard here and I never did anything in my country.
You know, the same old story: I don't have time, and this and that.... but the truth is, I could've done something. And I didn't. I have friends who were as busy as me or even more, and they found time to dedicate themselves to something. I never did. That hurts my heart so much!
My country has so many problems....! There are tons of things that I could've done in order to help... I feel shame. It's so much easier here to do something! It seems that it is more organized... but this is even one more reason in order to help in my country! I know many people take a step, small, but they make a difference in the communities they live. I constantly think my county - what are the major problems? How did we get there? (This is a hard one that I've been trying to find an answer for and, so far, nothing popped into my mind...). How could we fix it? How could we improve? What could we, as people, as citizens, do???????
Nothing. No answer. It's like talking to God. You never hear a clear answer....
I feel like I should do something, somehow. I feel like I should move my fat ass towards something other than the fridge!
But.... what??????????????????
I'm wondering if there is anything that I could do from here, from the US... maybe with a little help from my friends there... maybe we could get involved in something together... but what????
I think about Amazonia... I think about the endangered species, which I don't even know the names... I think about our indians (or native americans)... I always liked so much indian culture....and never tried to get involved in their issues.... =((
I think about the violence - so many needy communities in the city that I so much love! What have I done to help? Nothing.
I think about those AIDS patients that I interviewed for the college newspaper (which was an important one, with a certain degree of voice, considering it to be a college news) - what have I done, personally, in order to help them, other than writing about their situation??????
Oh, man.... so much shame....
=(
posted by The Lady of the Lake at 6:54 PM
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