Into the Ocean
Sometimes we hurt the people we love the most, because we don't know how to express our feelings, how to show them how we feel without hurting them. And when we start freaking, it just makes it even worse.
I think managing feelings is something we go on learning and learning. I thought I had learned how to. But it seems like I don't. So, in other words, I'm freaking. They are not bad feelings, no, not at all. On the contrary, they are wonderful feelings, but they are too strong and I am not used to have them. I guess this is the first time I feel this way.
So, I am thinking: " I need to stop freaking."
I don't know where all this freaking is coming from, but wherever it is coming from, I am going to stop it. I think I am NEEDING to dive into the ocean, for a freezing swim. I guess the freezing water will refresh my spirit and take away all this creepy freaking.
My bike has a flat tire. I've gotta get it fixed soon. I am missing my long bike rides, when I had the time to think and clear my thoughts and feelings. Nothing is like that. Nothing is so heavenly like feeling the ocean on your face, the smell of the grass on the bike path I used to take.... I am needing it. I think by this time of the year, the trees are not dropping spikes anymore. It's time to come back to the old path to peace.
The ocean is, for me, a balsam, a psychologist, a mind-clearer. It's peace. It always help me to put things in order inside my mind.
I'm listening to "Rain". I remember I used to go out in the middle of pouring rain when I was 14, just to feel the water washing my heart, my body, my soul. It felt good and purified. I would get inside soaked wet, but with a renewed heart.
Yeah, I think it's time now for me to get out of bed, put my bikini on, sunscreen on my face, a jacket, my iPod and drive to the ocean and get my soul and body soaked wet, as I used to do. I think I will run on Laguna Beach today, instead of Huntington. I wanna see and feel the place where I will be joined together with the reason of all my new smiles, freakings, laughs and happiness.
I think managing feelings is something we go on learning and learning. I thought I had learned how to. But it seems like I don't. So, in other words, I'm freaking. They are not bad feelings, no, not at all. On the contrary, they are wonderful feelings, but they are too strong and I am not used to have them. I guess this is the first time I feel this way.
So, I am thinking: " I need to stop freaking."
I don't know where all this freaking is coming from, but wherever it is coming from, I am going to stop it. I think I am NEEDING to dive into the ocean, for a freezing swim. I guess the freezing water will refresh my spirit and take away all this creepy freaking.
My bike has a flat tire. I've gotta get it fixed soon. I am missing my long bike rides, when I had the time to think and clear my thoughts and feelings. Nothing is like that. Nothing is so heavenly like feeling the ocean on your face, the smell of the grass on the bike path I used to take.... I am needing it. I think by this time of the year, the trees are not dropping spikes anymore. It's time to come back to the old path to peace.
The ocean is, for me, a balsam, a psychologist, a mind-clearer. It's peace. It always help me to put things in order inside my mind.
I'm listening to "Rain". I remember I used to go out in the middle of pouring rain when I was 14, just to feel the water washing my heart, my body, my soul. It felt good and purified. I would get inside soaked wet, but with a renewed heart.
Yeah, I think it's time now for me to get out of bed, put my bikini on, sunscreen on my face, a jacket, my iPod and drive to the ocean and get my soul and body soaked wet, as I used to do. I think I will run on Laguna Beach today, instead of Huntington. I wanna see and feel the place where I will be joined together with the reason of all my new smiles, freakings, laughs and happiness.
posted by The Lady of the Lake at 9:04 AM
2 Comments:
hi my dear friend , how are you?? I wih i could write like you....big hugsss
hey i wrote wrong.. I WISH i could write like you do, that is my point. big hugs again
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