I am a leaf in the wind

Another day, I and Michele were talking on the phone about our lives and how everything changed. Better saying, not that things really changed - they were always there. WE decided to hear them now. That is what changed.

My desire for traveling, for freedom, was always inside of me. It is my essence. The thing is, I didn't want to hear it. I wanted to suffocate it... now I think: why? Yeah, I now why...

We were talking about the future... she said what she wants to do... plans continue quite the same, but she is not the same anymore. She is more herself, like I am more myself. We are learning to accept ourselves the way we are.

She is keeping her prime idea... the opposite of me. I totally changed my plans. She will be among hers and she is not going to the world with me. It is a pity. I love her. She is now "my sister". But that the way things are. That the way life is. I told her: " You will always be the tree. You will be the fortress, the strength, where the others can come and find peace and advice. It's inside of you: the beauty and the bright and the spirit. And the strength. People will come to you with tears and fears and you will always be there, for whoever comes."

And I told her: " But, I, I am not the tree... I don't want to have the roots in the same place.... at least not for now.... I am the leaf. I want to be a leaf, and I want the wind to take me wherever it wants to. You will have people coming and going out of your life, like leaves in the wind. I am one of those leaves. But I will come to you once in a while, every time the winds blows to the side of my beloved ones. But I want the world. That is my home. I am a leaf in the wind."

That is the way things are... that is the way life is. Each person has its own way. It's good to discover which is yours. Lov u, my sister. Hope our ways will always be connected.